of adult crush and teenage crush

crush:
temporary love of an adolescent [syn: puppy love, calf love, infatuation]

when i was so much younger than now, i would collect any magazine or newspaper cutting that featured my celebrity crushes. anything, even a small tiny photo. i remember i had a file full of my favourite singers (i can't remember falling for an actor).

that was 10 years ago.

my feelings for guys or guys that attract me changed gradually. from a cute member of a boyband, i glued to those cool looking drummers. from a boy with a blonde clean cut hair to a guy with hair covering his both ears.

nevertheless, when at 24 and i still felt the rush of my blood through my face whenever i see the cute actor or the hot singer, i felt like a teenage. boybands, cute guys. those were my teenage year. and i still have those souls, those little voice at the back of my head that will melt around them.

those two guys, are from two different worlds. one, is from my teenage soul, while the other is my adult voice.

and a friend was right. this is a one-off feeling. i'll move on when all the feelings are gone. for now, let me be young once again. ^__^